There was a time, I once knew D.
Okay, Shortly after arriving home to vietnam I was beginning to doubt if I should still continue to be friends with everyone that I was.
tap lesson today sry morrow

Once upon a time...
Tomorrow I'll post a very big post, I'll see you s*tel

Today
Nothing much happening today I'm thinking of posting a poem for a contest the prize is money and being published. I'm not sure what to submit, I'm not sure if any of my poems are lighthearted enough to win.
Oh well screw that contest then eh? Unless I can find a floppy disk with my old poetry... I dunno... I'll just need some hope i guess. see ya.

Today
Today, I have weird feelings, I'm trying to be depressed so that I can write for an up and coming poetry contest, but frankly not that much matters, I'm trying to decide something big in my life right now, but can't seem to bring myself to do it, too many spent emotions I guess.
Sometimes it's not worth it to me, sometimes it's the only thing i can think of, well actually it IS the only thing I can think of. I dunno...
There was once something special in me, it's gone now. That's the fourth time, I'm not sure what to do, too much conflicting emotions. I'm betrayed yet I don't care, and I'm wanting to reconcile, though I do not believe I was at fault, I waited so long for something that lasted me a day.
It killed me inside. In fact, you can already consider me dead.
I'm nothing but a shell now, and I think that I'm ready to go back to the old duy.
"d" as I used to call myself.
I'm tired of it all.. I really am...
I'm glad to know my old friends have not betrayed me.
But still... I want so much for this somehting to happen, yet..
It already has, and the moment was but a dream, rather a nightmare cause there is no evidence besides my memory that it had ever happened.
Sick and tired of it all.

What would you do world?
I'm out for today.

Start
Today is the start of a new journal. I have high hopes that this will not be blocked soon.